Last remix post... for now

[brigdh]

Remix finished and sent!

..all right, so it was sent in last night, but by the time I finished, I was exhausted and went straight to bed, instead of making a celebratory post.

I feel strange. I'm anxious for the stories to go up, because I'm worried about all the problems that ended up being left in mine. I want to be able to talk about my excuses for not having done as good a job as I'd liked. I want to see what other people think of it. I can't believe we have to wait till Saturday to the stories to go up! I'll never make it.

On the other hand, I feel weirdly restless. I've spent the last few days panicking and doing nothing except writing, writing, writing, so it feels bizarre to suddenly be done with it. I even banned myself from reading anything, checking my flist (not that I did a great job with that), or watching TV for the last two days. Which means, of course, that I now have several hundred posts to read!

Since I forgot it yesterday: Happy Spring!

There are several inches of snow on the ground right now, but dammit, happy spring!

Comments

[animadri.livejournal.com]

Yay! You did it. I knew you would. I'm sure it turned out wonderfully. Like I said in my LJ, you tend to work best under pressure.

[wordsofastory.livejournal.com]

*grins* Thank you!

And I can only hope it's good. I can't wait to see.

[wordsofastory.livejournal.com]

*laughs* Yeah. And there's a lot more people participating in this than I'd realized- I keep seeing new posts and thinking "Hey, you're in remix too?!"

Thanks!

[p-zeitgeist.livejournal.com]

God, I know exactly how you feel. I sent mine off last night with less than an hour to spare, and then couldn't believe that there was nowhere to go to wave my arms around anxiously about what was wrong with the thing, and why I hadn't quite been able to fix it, and whether all my stylistic choices were wrong, and blah blah blah.

I hadn't really anticipated that it would be this way, either. I have plenty of posting neuroses, as you know, but somehow the whole remix concept turns out to introduce entirely new kinds of issues and anxieties. And they feel less like private insanities that I should squelch rather than inflicting on others, and more like actual discussion material. And there's nothing we can do about it.

But now I understand more about where the ferocity about making that deadline was coming from. It's not like stagesoflove or yaoi_challenge, where being late doesn't affect anybody but you and anyone who might want to read what you've written. The folks needing extensions are drawing this out for every participant. As someone who is in frequent need of extensions herself I can hardly complain, but I could wish no one had needed any, and I'm grateful for once not to have been a culprit myself.

[wordsofastory.livejournal.com]

Yeeeeeeeees. I want to have long discussions about how many changes you can make and still have it be a remix and not an original story, and why I did the things I did, and where I had to stick quick patches on larger problems, because I knew I didn't have enough time to deal with them thoroughly, and oh so many other things.

Not that anyone is likely all that interested in my neuroses, but it would make me feel better to write them up. This waiting to see how people will react is making it worse.

The folks needing extensions are drawing this out for every participant.

I feel guilty. I ended up being about three hours late with mine which, true, probably didn't make a difference in the overall decision to add an extra day. Still, I'm sure it didn't help.

[ranalore.livejournal.com]

I tend to post a big ol' rambling commentary after the authors are revealed. I encourage you all to play.

[wordsofastory.livejournal.com]

I think I will; I have so much to say about this story. Though I should probably write it down soon. I'll forget some of it if I wait a week and half to write it.

I'm glad to hear you're doing it too, though. I love to read authors' thoughts about their stories.

[ranalore.livejournal.com]

In past years, I've actually cut it down a bit before posting it, because I wasn't sure anyone would be interested. This year, though, looks like we could turn it into a Thing. *G*