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brigdhI'm so tired. This has nothing, really, to do with the actual amount of hours I've been sleeping (which, admittedly, is probably less than it should be) but the way I sleep. I'm a very, very light sleeper. I've always been this way. I'm sure it's a combination of genetics and lifestyle- my dad's a light sleeper, and I never had a roommate before college. I sleep to the point where something as simple as opening the door to the room I'm in will wake me up.
It's annoying. Regardless of how many hours I actually spend in bed, I'm not getting to levels of deep sleep I need to be rested. And I know it's because part of my brain is going "There's someone in the room with us! MUST STAY ALERT!", and I wish it would just get used to it already and let me sleep.
This isn't the roommate's fault, by the way. She's quite a sweetie, and really quiet when she is awake and I'm not. This is just me. And in a way, I'm glad for it, because I certainly wouldn't ever want to sleep through an actual dangerous situation- a fire, a robbery- but right now, I would be glad to get some actual sleep so I can stop feeling head-ache-y and yawny all the time.
Ah, well.
My Anthropology class got out an hour early today, which was nice. The last two days have been about the basics of evolution. The last four days in Biology have been about the basics of evolution. This would be the same basics I had to memorize in the Spring, in Bio 113. Which are the same basics I learned last winter, in Anthro 201. Which are the same basics I was first taught in high school biology.
If I have to spend five more minutes this week on what "survival of the fittest actually means", I will scream. So, instead, I tuned out my TA and wrote ClubSoka. I have about a page, wheeeee! A page hand-written, which, granted, is much shorter than a page typed, but it's still something.
I'm stuck on this passage about the relationship between Hisoka and Tsuzuki. It's fairly short- between two and three paragraphs- but I just cannot write it the way I want. Most of the problem is because I'm having trouble articulating, even to myself, exactly why Hisoka is attracted to Tsuzuki. It's like, I can see it in specific actions, or I can express it in an image, but I can't put it down in the pretty words, in the generalizations I need for this passage. And so I rewrite it obsessively. Because everytime I think I'm satisfied, when I go back and look at it again, I realize, no, that's just not right. That's not how it is.
*sighs* But I do like the bit I got today, so I shall work on it more later. Or not, maybe, since I'm going to the Fusion meeting tonight, and still have to eat dinner and shower. But it's a thought.
It's annoying. Regardless of how many hours I actually spend in bed, I'm not getting to levels of deep sleep I need to be rested. And I know it's because part of my brain is going "There's someone in the room with us! MUST STAY ALERT!", and I wish it would just get used to it already and let me sleep.
This isn't the roommate's fault, by the way. She's quite a sweetie, and really quiet when she is awake and I'm not. This is just me. And in a way, I'm glad for it, because I certainly wouldn't ever want to sleep through an actual dangerous situation- a fire, a robbery- but right now, I would be glad to get some actual sleep so I can stop feeling head-ache-y and yawny all the time.
Ah, well.
My Anthropology class got out an hour early today, which was nice. The last two days have been about the basics of evolution. The last four days in Biology have been about the basics of evolution. This would be the same basics I had to memorize in the Spring, in Bio 113. Which are the same basics I learned last winter, in Anthro 201. Which are the same basics I was first taught in high school biology.
If I have to spend five more minutes this week on what "survival of the fittest actually means", I will scream. So, instead, I tuned out my TA and wrote ClubSoka. I have about a page, wheeeee! A page hand-written, which, granted, is much shorter than a page typed, but it's still something.
I'm stuck on this passage about the relationship between Hisoka and Tsuzuki. It's fairly short- between two and three paragraphs- but I just cannot write it the way I want. Most of the problem is because I'm having trouble articulating, even to myself, exactly why Hisoka is attracted to Tsuzuki. It's like, I can see it in specific actions, or I can express it in an image, but I can't put it down in the pretty words, in the generalizations I need for this passage. And so I rewrite it obsessively. Because everytime I think I'm satisfied, when I go back and look at it again, I realize, no, that's just not right. That's not how it is.
*sighs* But I do like the bit I got today, so I shall work on it more later. Or not, maybe, since I'm going to the Fusion meeting tonight, and still have to eat dinner and shower. But it's a thought.
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Date: 2003-10-01 03:21 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2003-10-01 04:48 pm (UTC)It'll come, you'll just be frustrated as hell in the meantime.
And y'know, you could always add the roomie to that pile of bodies in the dorm bathroom. Then it wouldn't be a problem.
Was I not supposed to talk about that? --__--;;
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Date: 2003-10-01 06:37 pm (UTC)And I don't think I've ever taken Bendryl. But thanks for the thought!
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Date: 2003-10-01 06:39 pm (UTC)But thanks for the suggestion! I'll have to see what I can do about white noise.
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Date: 2003-10-01 06:43 pm (UTC)And, hey, that's an idea! I'm the janitors get bored when there's no mangled corpses for them to clean up. I'd be doing good, really.
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Date: 2003-10-01 08:18 pm (UTC)Costco has an air purifier thingy for about $120 or so. It's also really useful if you have allergies.