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[brigdh]

I just found out that my other grandmother- the one who didn't die last month- has a massive 'mass' on her brain, and they can't even biopsy it, they're not even going to try, they're just going to send her home.

And oh god. I don't know. This hurts so much worse than the last time. This isn't fair, not to her, not to anyone. I hate this. I don't know. She raised me, a lot, because both my parents worked fulltime, so she picked me up from school and kept me till they came home, and I spent the summers at her house.

Please say nice things to me. But I don't want to talk about it; maybe later, but not now. And isn't it stupid, but I'm so glad my roommate is gone, because I'm being noisy as I cry and I wouldn't want anyone to hear.

Comments

[chiasmus.livejournal.com]

*giant hugs*

[ladysisyphus.livejournal.com]

I'd like to mention you (in vague terms) over here (http://community.livejournal.com/irchurch/34343.html), iff'n you don't mind -- or you can comment yourself, it is all, as they say, good.

Other than that, ♥. And I really had a good time meeting you on Saturday, and we should indeed do it again sometime!

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

*Hugs you so much* I'm so sorry, honey; what a terrible shock. It won't seem so overwhelming in a few weeks -- part of the emotional stuff now is because it came so suddenly out of left field, you know? It's totally normal to react the way you're reacting, and in general I think it's better to LET yourself react than try to fight it. *More hugs*

[ranalore.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight*

I love you, sugar. I use the Santa hat penguins you gave me for added emphasis.

[p-zeitgeist.livejournal.com]

Being glad your roommate is gone is not stupid. There are times when privacy is important, and that you have some is at least a tiny crumb of mercy in this wasteland of awfulness.

I am so sorry. Also angry all over again at the universe for being set up to do this to you and to her.

[kessie.livejournal.com]

Oh, hon. I'm so, so sorry.

Please cry, though, and let it all out. Sometimes crying is the best thing you can do. :(

[drmoonpants.livejournal.com]

Internet hugs are kind of lame, but all the ones I've got are yours. And if you need anything.

[thebratqueen.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

*Sends good thoughts*

[aoyagi.livejournal.com]

*hugs* And I'm sorry this has to happen to your dear grandma *more hugs* *sends chocolate, coffee, tissues and some fluffy!Swordspoint fic to make it all better*

[oyceter]

*hugs* Oh hon, I'm so sorry.

[parallactic.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about your grandmother. I'm sorry you're hurting.

[scribblemoose]

I'm so sorry, babe. That sucks. *hugs*

[coffeeandink.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry. That's awful.

If you think company or distraction would help, let me know.

[louiselux.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry to hear that. Internet hugs don't really seem adequate, but have them anyway. *hugs*

[rachelmanija.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. I hope you'll get to spend some good time with her now.

[animadri.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, sweetie. *hugs you tight*

[alkairis.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm so sorry. My Grandma was in a similar state a few years ago, and she'd practically brought me up too. It's awful, and though it may not help, I feel for you.

[wordsofastory.livejournal.com]

You are certainly welcome to mention me, but I don't think I'll say anything myself. I'm not really coherent yet. Thank you, though.