I don't think you're a terrible person at all. As someone else pointed out, the empasis on keeping teh gay a secret is rather telling. (and the excessive abuse of grammer and spelling is, too.)

Being in high school myself, I can only hope that the drama ends someday. Personally, I know I've met some people in high school that I'm probubly not going to forget, just because I was such a little closed off, cold, stuck up thing in grade school, and you'd hope that you remember the people who managed to socialize you. (somewhat. I still show affection like a third-grader, but hey. I blame the llamas.)

Of corse, I might look back on high school going "what did I think I was doing?!"